#actually osdd

[traumagenic-positivity]

i love you systems who call your alters "parts"

i love you systems who call your alters "alters"

i love you systems who call your alters "headmates"

i love you systems who call your alters "voices"

i love you systems who call your alters swears

i love you systems who call your alters things that are silly, weird, or normal

dont let anyone tell you what to call them <3

[canadianlohoser]

i kid you not this is how jülian and i met. i walked an hour and a half to the petrol station just for a energy drink and slushie, by the time i got to the fridges to choose what energy drink i just hear “get the mango loco monster” in a sleepy dutch voice i swear i almost sh!t my pants i actually physically flinched and squeaked bro. anyways we ended up standing at the fridges for about 15 minutes fighting for what flavour we’d get but ended up getting 2 monsters plus the slushie….and now he’s my best friend

DID but not as in presence of "evil murderer alter", DID as in buying two drinks instead of one because someone came to front after seeing a blue raspberry slushie and DEMANDED to have it, but the alter who walked all the way to the gas station refused to leave without getting what they wanted to get initially.

[thosecactussharks]

You're downplaying your trauma. Why are you downplaying your trauma? WHO TAUGHT YOU TO DOWNPLAY YOUR TRAU-

...

My friend. My absolute ride-or-die. My dumbass, fuckass dude (gender neutral) that I love. Please.

Always prefacing experiences that are serious, upsetting, or otherwise negatively affecting you because you think the other person is going to dismiss you or raise their voice and tell you that you're overexaggerating without the preamble, is not normal.

Being terrified of or adverse to asking questions to anyone because you automatically assume you're going to be dismissed and told a harsh no, is not normal.

Someone else doing something that, rightfully, would make you upset or angry, that then makes you feel sick with guilt for the fact that you got angry - a completely valid and normal emotion to experience and express in that situation- is not normal.

Just because the person didn't or doesn't know that they gave you trauma, doesn't mean that they didn't hurt you. Just because you still love that person and are close to that person, doesn't mean that they didn't traumatize you.

Just because someone else thinks it wasn't that bad, doesn't mean it wasn't that bad to you. Just because something affected one person less than you, doesn't mean it didn't affect you more.

Telling yourself that an event wasn't traumatic doesn't remove the trauma it caused. Downplaying something because you don't think it was that bad, doesn't mean it's not that bad.

What didn't happen can be just as damaging as what did.

Neglect is trauma, too.

[tizzychardia]

Heyyy I think it's that time where it's important to discuss the nuanced conversation around DID/OSDD systems and taking accountability.

The kind of behaviors I'm going to discuss are more prevalent in faker communities. I've never seen an actually diagnosed system that's in therapy behave this way. If you find yourself being bothered by this, look inward.

And before I start this - a healthy reminder that your alters are fragments of yourself. It is your brain breaking off pieces of your individuality as a defense mechanism in response to trauma. You may have introjects of characters from media, literature, etc - but those introjects only stem as far as the basis of their formation - what connects them to your individuality as a person in regards to trauma. Your alters are still parts of you - they are still you.

Just like in almost every space online, there is an issue with grooming and abusive/predatory behavior. One thing I've noticed is that it gets swept under the rug a lot more in mental health communities, especially DID/OSDD spaces.

The common excuse being, "It wasn't me! It was my alter! I had no control over it!"

Like it or not, you as the "host" are still responsible. You will still be held accountable.

Your alters are still parts of you on the basis of trauma, and the excuse of "I groomed/sexually abused/physically abused another person because it was a trauma response" still does not apply or justify the act of such.

The court of law will not care about your alters either. You'll either get convicted or be forced to take an insanity plea, and having DID/OSDD does not make you "insane" - that's a stereotype that many real systems try and stray away from.

While it is true that there are differences in amnesia between DID and OSDD, as well as the amount of amnesia being somewhat of a spectrum depending on the individual who experiences it - amnesia is also not an excuse to evade accountability.

"I can't remember it!" Congratulations, you're still responsible if you hurt another person, and "not remembering" doesn't erase the hurt caused. Buck up and start making amends.

I hate to break this to you, but you can't fully separate yourself from your alters because alters are not individual beings. They are essentially fragments of yourself that have been compartmentalized.

Let's use Touya Todoroki from My Hero Academia as an example, an arsonist villain. A system may develop an introject of him based on a similarity around abandonment trauma (his childhood plotline) if the person was experiencing trauma around the same time they were consuming media of him - because remember - alters are formed based on trauma - DID/OSDD is trauma based.

Now, if that Touya alter started beating on people while fronting, the system doesn't get to use the excuse of, "Well, he's a villain!! It's not my fault he's hurting people!"

Because that alter was formed on the basis of a connection around abandonment trauma, not his villainous tendencies. Any kind of physically abusive habits "he" is displaying while fronting is simply because the "host" of the system shares that part - your alters are not fully individualized or independent. If your alters are abusive or pedatory, YOU are abusive or predatory.

This is why I always have to roll my eyes when people start talking about "source memories" that span beyond the alters reason for existing. That Touya alter isn't going to "remember" his little interactions with Hawks, Spinner, Shigaraki, none of that - because that isn't the reason for his existence - the reason for his existence being abandonment trauma that connects to the systems trauma. Everything else is just the system using their imagination.

You have to take accountability when you fuck up, it doesn't matter if you're a system or not. The people who believe that they can escape accountability for causing harm to others simply because, "my alter did it, not me," - and I say this with my whole chest, are not systems, and are only contributing to the harmful misinformation surrounding the debilitating disorder that is DID/OSDD.

[lambbchopped]

[killsterrrr]

this video sent systems back YEARS

[thekingdomsystem]

Mother: What do you want for dinner?

The system's ageless god trapped in a mortal body:...Soup...

[evilsystem]

being immortal and having DID must be crazy. yeah our boy Carlos hasn't fronted in 300 years and just woke up to the sound of Uptown Funk and started screaming

[osddid-i-do-that]

For any system that needs to hear this:

Experiencing periods of silence in your brain is normal. You’re not making it up or faking or actually just a singlet just because you can’t hear other alters 24/7/365.

[gor3sigil]

DID IS NOT RARE DID IS NOT RARE DID IS NOT RARE DID IS NOT RARE DID IS NOT-

[necroticcadaver]

Do not claim to be a mental health advocate or a safe space for the mentally ill if you demonise systems, cluster B personality disorders and/or psychotic disorders.

[botanical-garden-system]

Hey, it’s not your fault. You were just a kid. You may still BE a kid. But I know a few things for certain:

You didn’t ask to be born into this world.

You didn’t ask to be treated the way that you were treated—whether it was by bullies, parents, or other family members.

You didn’t ask to “be a burden” to your caregivers, you deserved that space to be loved and safe

You didn’t ask for your consent to be broken.

You didn’t ask for the shame and guilt someone put you through.

You aren’t bad for something happening to you. You aren’t your trauma.

I’m sorry if you were ever made to feel that way, and I know that may never mean much coming from a stranger, but I know it’s something I wish I heard more.

[moonlitmeadowsys]

me a few years ago: why do i feel like i just came into existence when i was 12 or 13? why do i not really remember my childhood very well? why do i have such a horrible memory in general? why do my identity and behaviors vary so drastically?

me now: oh

[pinkdiamonddd]

headspaces are so confusing 😭😭

wwhenever ppl talk abt them I'm like. ?????

not in a hateful way but like. some systems treat it like a place they can go to and stay in and. I want that??? are these ppl exaggerating or ?

i know innerworlds arent a physical place. obviously. but so many talk about them like they are and I'm almost jealous

literally what do I do. am I overthinking this.

[aurangg]

Something really not talked about with trauma disorders is the paranoia.

Being scared and jumping to conclusions when people stand a little too close to you, not believing people’s compliments and thinking they have hidden motives, not believing when people tell you they like/love you, thinking that strangers you see on the street want to hurt you, etc.